Apr 24 2009
Less than one week now…
Today we continue to get ready for this upcoming deployment. It is less than a week now. I have a lot of mixed feelings and I am trying not to get angry about petty little things because I feel stressed and frustrated. I know that my husband has a lot of mixed feelings about staying and going.
I don’t think that there is such thing as a good time to go, though. Today we shopped together for a lot of birthdays for both of our families that will be coming up soon. There are a lot of loose ends that we are trying to get taken care of before he leaves. I don’t want him to have stress while he is gone about how I am taking care of things at home.
Because this is our first deployment, I am not sure what to expect. I wake up at night and I am fully aware that he will not be here much longer. He is not sleeping well right now so he is not always in bed if I wake up.
I have been trying to find some good resources online. I have been unable to attend any local pre-deployment briefs and meetings because I am always working during the times that are offered.
Everything is surreal right now. I know that everything will be okay. I know that I will see him again. I know that he will be missing me as much, if not more as I miss him. I just don’t know what to expect with the loneliness I will feel. He’s my best friend and it will be difficult to be without him.
Does normal life go on when I live by myself for a year? I am sure that it does. I am just a little nervous. I know that if other wives have gone through this, I will be strong enough to do it, too.
